Today's my last day at THODW. I'm going to miss the hell out of that place. I'm leaving before I hate it because it's been such an amazing journey and part of my life and I don't ever want to resent it or regret it like I have seen people do.
I started here a terrified little girl and now I'm not. Simply. I have new hobbies, new interests, a zeal for traveling, a faith in myself that's new, confidence to travel alone - that's definitely new, most importantly - the most amazing and supportive network of friends from all over the world who will always understand this part of my life. Always. And I have Macau and the people here to thank for all of that.
I might even return to Asia one day. Not immediately, I will need some time to get over this experience and properly mourn my leaving, but I'll come back one day. I need to dive Raja Ampat again, after all.
This experience meant so much to me that I'm ignoring the mounds of crap all over my room to write a the first of what I am sure will be several posts dedicated to how I feel about leaving because I am still trying to work it out for myself.
I'm sad to be leaving the first place I have called home since I moved to LSU. I'm sad to be leaving my yoga classes because they centered me and grounded me and gave me a coping mechanism. I wish I had traveled more - because the world is so big and the slice of it I have explored so tiny in comparison. I am going to miss my coworkers - all 400 of them. Well, maybe most of them. Ok, some of them. They are the most passionate, beautiful, caring, loving people I have ever met. We're a family. Together we acheived some awesome things and I am so proud to say that I was a part of them.
Most of all, I am proud of myself. Because when I got here, I thought I might make it 6 months and then flee home quaking in terror. Instead, I am walking out a member of the creation team for the show, having made it and flourished in my job. I am proud of the work I accomplished, because I did work really hard, as we all did.
No regrets. Not a single, solitary one.
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